My Muchness
Part of the pain of infertility was wanting to relive my childhood through my children, and desperately finding ways to relive that childhood without them once I realized that we were never having children. This was one of the reasons I decided I needed a change. It’s what prompted my word of the year…upheaval. I’ve come to realize that I’m a different person. Who I was as a child compared to who I am now…are two completely different people. I was talking to a good friend of mine the other day and told them that if someone told me that they had broken their foot at the top of the mountain and hiked over three miles on that foot, I would have exclaimed, “I could never do that!” But I did. If someone would have told me in high school about everything I would have to endure once I graduated, I would have exclaimed, “I could never survive that!” But I did. I survived it all. The little girl who couldn’t sleep without a stuffed animal or a doll (and ...